Hey! I'm here too.

Just a bit of drama

Mon, 09 Jun 2008 17:37:59 GMT

Lord Doki Wrote:

Ok so here is the good news. I've finally decided to get a much better job that would help pay my car insurance and registration and eventually help me get a better place.

Now for the bad news. I'm doing this because my father got pissed off that my bank account was dropping because it was supposed to be $300 and above or I would be constantly garnished for fees till it was $300 again and I had to pay my hotel room fee and Athena wouldn't wait to be paid some time after Fanime so after I did I pulled more money out cuz I needed to eat, pay the parking fee and pay for all the gas it took to get home cuz Athena welched on her promising me half a tank of gas before she and Masoud left. I also am not going to be able to attend anymore conventions until I get my financial act together which would make a better living for myself and my family. The last convention I will be going to is Anime Expo then I have no choice but to quit if I want to get my ass outta the gutter. I have also decided to agree to my fathers wishes to get hitched as this could also help me remedy my currently bad situation.

God willing, if I make my life better I may return but until then I have to go and it might be forever. If thats the case I'll miss everyone of you and thanks for your friendship.

Ok in case you are wondering NO this person is not on Gaia. He was a friend now no longer. So this friend comes to me a month before con says he doesn't have a place to stay for con so I tell him sure. He tells me he can pay we agree on $80 and I tell him he must pay me at the door or he can't stay he agrees. Now I get to con on Thursday like we plan and he says I can't pay you till after con I say thats not going to work cause if you don't pay others will try to get out of it. and believe me they have tried some every few have succeeded.

Now he does pay me but with complaint as you see. As I hang out with friends at con one of them says I'm way to forgiving of this person cause of what he pulled at last con. ALA he walked in on me changing. The other male friend who is one of my brothers is like if he does that again I will kick the crap out of him. Not to mention if i see him with his hands on you again in a way that hurts you. An inncodent at taco tuesday he (moron) put his arm around my scar and I stopped breathing.

Now I find out friday from a girlfriend of mine that moron was to stay with them for $135. He said to them Oh well I'm not staying with you all cause your too expensive and I found someone cheaper. If I had know that I would have told him to go stay with them. But he left that little detail out. Because of him not staying staying with my girlfriends they had to cancel there room and rush to find people to stay with. Not only that but there Bio brothers could not go to there first con cause know one knew them and were willing to let them stay. Agian If I had know this they could have stayed with me and moron could be out. so one stayed with other friends and the other with her Boyfriend. That room was HELLA packed.

Now Saturday night rolls around I tell everyone that morning I will be needing the room between 6-7pm so me and a few friends can order room service for dinner. Of course that moron had to ruin it he went to the room at 4pm fell asleep and didn't wake up till 9pm (I did not get dinner that night.) By the time the other people in the room got back to teh room and saw my they knew to duck and cover i saw so pissed off. One roomie was like i can get you food I said no its too late my feet hurt and if i eat now I'll be sick.

So end of con moron does not call nor look for me to help him get gas instead he sends very rude texts to evryone. I'm saying this I make this trip really cheap for everyone I had 2 people on this trip with out jobs yet they made it saving like hell all year for it. So he can get his act together and stop mooching off of people. next journal post will be my list of rules for staying with me next year. they aren't that bad god but this guy makes me sound like a money grubbing bitch!.

Incase you are wondering Yes i had a great time at con. After I am done posting this I will NEVER think of this person again =^.^= }|{.

Alia died/ new job hopes

Wed, 25 Jul 2007 23:29:48 GMT

Well no big Shocker Alia finally bit the big one. My desk top computer is dead the only thing that sucks about that is there was about 30 gigs of anime still on her. Oh well she was on her last legs thank God(dess) I have Ghanima (Laptop). I'll be able to get a new desktop if I land this new job I'm trying to get.

Data entry at some debt collection place. I think the starting is $12 - $14 an hour if I get it I won't be able to move for a year. I don't care Moving is moving. Anything at this rate to get thye HELL out of Orange County. Don't get me wrong I love being in Laguna but the people are assholes esp. if you work in the service world which I do. Plus side to living here 15 min from beach Down Side bunch of rich Little Bastards children thinking they are better than everyone. Oh well enough complaining good news later ^^

Been To Long

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 18:06:10 GMT

Ok lets see whats been going on. "Cliff Note version"
Cole moved out after running up my phone bill $300.00.
Quit Burger King.
Moved to Laguna Niguel (15min From Laguna Beach).
Working for Maggie Moo's
Got hired then fired from a really nice PA job.
Back down to a thirteen. My Goal is Eleven.
Still working at maggie moos.
Now Looking for better job.
Got a car 2007 Toyota Matrix (Silver).
Owns a laptop no more excuses why I'm not on here.

Want to know anything else just ask ^^.

Broken bowl

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 08:50:24 GMT

ok i know this is weird but my family is really weird but when i finally got rid of a few people my grand parents gave me a set of dishes that have been in the family for over thirty years. my grandpa got the dishes when he was in japan when he was first there he got them as a house warming gift from his squad. little did they know my grandma brought the set they had already. bad i dea but a nice thought. well since my grandparents who are really my mom and dad casuse they act like it more. they know im really in to japanese things they gave me the dishes they got all thoes years ago as a gift. which to this day i love and use cause i like them and it was a cool gift^^. well to night about 12:15am dustball broke one of the small bowls good going. now the main reason im so pissed i wasnt home all day the dish washer isnat full and the dishes that are in the sink or thru out the house could have been run but nope!!! instead they werent i only have one day off again till further notice. woot now tell me would you really want to use your only day off to claen a house. the one that you spent the week earier cleaning to make it look nice cause people are coming over to buy a car. no i would hope that others would help with the up keep of the house since mmm what are my work hours? 6or5:30am-2or2:30pm everyday 6days a week and oh yeah i had massive pains all day yesterday(fri) as i got off work till today(sat) about 4:30pm i still had shit to do today that i couldnt get out of so what ok?? i will keep hopeing that some will help but its up to them and im off i have to work at ohh what 6am again today to make sure rent is paid on the first. btw im only getting a wopping 550$ this check i hope it will cover everything.

days

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 03:20:29 GMT

ok sitting here in front of the comp most days cause I'm to tired to go out and I don't really have the money to go out. Since I sort of got screwed this month yeah tis the season lol. Ok enough of that work has once again put me on 6 days a week 8 hours a day except sunday and wensday are four hour days with I think only tuesdays off woot, at least the pay will be good. Star wars is done we still have alot of watches and we are getting ferrbies. Agg the cuteness is already getting to me. any ways wait for this next check is killing me I really need it. at leaste I got all of the x-mas gifts bought already. well need to get the family ones but im getting that on my next day off.

But yeah back to the whole reason I'm writting this I really want to go out see a movie do something other than sit here and be bored. normally i would not be witting this but some people all i here is i cant go out cause no one wants to pick me up. if you want to out get your own ride to your friends if they cant get you or ask thoes you live with. Isaved some money aside to go to the movies to see Harry potter and Aeon Flux but that went south. At least I was able to get the series from walmart for 30$. well let me know if i should bring it to next com any ways im off to bed some one has to get a pay check (masoud your doing fine ok)

note: never sit in your living room/comp room in a towel people might come over. they also might think you are weird but really its just comfortable.

got from dsw_777

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 02:39:35 GMT

What was this for again???
Copied from tsukinobara, moriyama_umi and mognetcentral.

FOUR JOBS YOU'VE HAD IN YOUR LIFE
1. Witch's Brew
2. Dragon Wytch Cottage
3. Calire's
4. Burger King

FOUR MOVIES YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER
1) Little Mermaid
2) Dune and Childern of Dune (sci-fi channel)
3) The Princess Bride
4) Tank Girl

FOUR CITIES YOU'VE LIVED IN
1) Lancaster,CA
2) Palmdale, CA
3)
4)

FOUR TV SHOWS YOU LOVE TO WATCH
1) Charmed
2) Buffy the Vampier Slayer
3) Stargate SG1
4) 4400

FOUR PLACES YOU'VE BEEN ON VACATION
1) Japan
2) Florda
3) Ohio
4) Nebraska
the last three dont really count since i had to see family.

FOUR WEBSITES YOU VISIT DAILY
1) Neopets
2) Gaia
3) LiveJournal
4) Anime Suki

FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS
1) Chicken
2) Pasta
3) Anything from BK (okok i know i work there)
4) All kinds of fruit.

FOUR PLACES YOU'D RATHER BE RIGHT NOW
1) Nor Cal (seiji jessa and all god im bored down here i miss you)
2) Japan
3) A beach somewhere
4) under a rock lol j/k ummmmm some where quite

screw you people hahahaha

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 04:05:30 GMT

ok hahahaha we just got all the house paper work in and HA they arent going to charge us the $15 extra a day for living here. i dont care anymore what anyone has to say. i live here free and clear. and oh side note i heard from sam hes doing good. in case you dont know me and are reading this hes my ex. i have all of my shopping done for chistmas and grams is taking me out to do christmas shopping for grandpa uncle and tim. oh bit of advise never break in new shoes at work.

HELP!

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 02:27:37 GMT

for the love of god someone please help me right now please. i cant take some of the shit that happening right now.

Auction Results

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 03:11:12 GMT

The Results with minor commantary if you want to add let me know.

01)The Band that played there which was three members went for $410
02) Teysu $400
03) Lestat $450
04) Shingo $470 {in the words of so many shake it shingo!}
05) The Ed cat $130
06) Bazu $320 {All teh way frome the U.K.}
07) June $200
08) Tidus $500 {looks better in Sepheroth}
09) Devin $ 1300 {beat the Male record by $300!!!!!}
10) M $150
11) Ian $350 {Fresh Meat really he turned 18 the night before the con.}
12) Tora $660
13) Oni $330
14) Shiki $750
15) Matt $1000 {I'm happy he finally went for a grand he should have been the first}
16) Dante $180
17) Jose $550 {C.H.U.G. boy}
And last but not least the most expensive person in all the years of Yaoi-con was not a man but was...
18) Mistress Saya For $125,000 maxing out 15 credit cards. Ok in the words of kender stupid C.H.U.G boys lol.
^now it has been official it was a haox.
just to add

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	5.9
Mind:	5.4
Body:	7.5
Spirit:	5.4
Friends/Family:	6.5
Love:	4.3
Finance:	7.9
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

new lj i can

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 01:17:09 GMT

what the hell i thought it was cute

I should Be in bed BUT...

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 08:36:11 GMT

I finally got my comp to work and yes the drivers were available for down load. thank god i dont hav eto ask som eone forthe drivers. WOOOOOOOT thank you mark. ok thats all for now

comp

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 05:02:26 GMT

Well i guess i finally got kicked in the ass like everone wanted my comp is down till i can fix it or till i can get a legal copy of windows. the damn thing went down this morning and i havent been able to work on it since because once again work called me in early. god damn it i love this an dguess who was a NO SHOW linda. oh well got more hours and i'll probably have to work late like 12:00pm-8:30pm this week end i love that carnivale that comes every couple of months! i hope my pay check is $400 if not i dont know if i can go to ax but ill just ask grandma and grandpa if i can get a little bit of money for my birthday it will only be 23 days early^^. well ill let you all know how its going when is redone prays to whoever might be listening PLEASE LET THE DAMN THING WORK!!!!
you know i wonder if naming my comp alia was a bad thing?

the conversation me and chris had

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 15:41:58 GMT

Blue85Butterfly (1:57:30 PM): what do you want?
xHakkaix (1:57:46 PM): can we talk, or is it going to be a blood bath one way, my way.
Blue85Butterfly (1:57:57 PM): we can talk
xHakkaix (1:58:08 PM): without ease droppers or such?
Blue85Butterfly (1:58:32 PM): no one is home we all work
xHakkaix (1:59:11 PM): ok, i sent an email to you, its not a threat or such, just a bit of explaining.
xHakkaix (1:59:21 PM): but I still want to talk right now after you soem what or not read it.
Blue85Butterfly (2:00:04 PM): what was it like the first one you sent me because if it is i wont read it
xHakkaix (2:00:58 PM): Sorta lost me there but, if you read I promise, its not a bad email, its just saying and answering a few things. I want to straighten this thing out, nicely and calmly.
Blue85Butterfly (2:01:31 PM): which did you send it to
xHakkaix (2:01:38 PM): blue
xHakkaix (2:01:42 PM): yahoo sorry
Blue85Butterfly (2:03:04 PM): i dont have the password
xHakkaix (2:03:24 PM): ...*falls over*
Blue85Butterfly (2:03:28 PM): but ill try to remember it
xHakkaix (2:03:36 PM): its ok, i'll just tell you what I said,
xHakkaix (2:03:39 PM): you still talking to pip?
Blue85Butterfly (2:04:38 PM): of course you didnt ruin that relation ship
Blue85Butterfly (2:05:21 PM): and on that note i still have the first email
xHakkaix (2:05:24 PM): just wait there, not yelling right now but like to say.
xHakkaix (2:06:07 PM): ...*trys to relax* look right now I doubt you trust me, so I'm wondering if I can even say things to you even if they're true.
Blue85Butterfly (2:06:12 PM): i kept leaving at fanime because its the only con i may go to and i dont want it messed up do to drama
xHakkaix (2:06:35 PM): do you think i want drama at fanime.
xHakkaix (2:06:42 PM): I wanted to clean things up fast before than.
Blue85Butterfly (2:06:49 PM): im not yelling more or less crying becasue you hurt me more than you could ever know
xHakkaix (2:07:05 PM): you weren't the only one hurt, so was I.
xHakkaix (2:07:13 PM): thats why i doubt you will trust what I have to say.
Blue85Butterfly (2:07:40 PM): just say it
xHakkaix (2:08:19 PM): first off, the email, yes, me. I sent it, ....but here's the part you probly have the hardest time believeing.
Blue85Butterfly (2:09:43 PM): ok heres one thing you should already NO ONE calls me a bitch NO ONE
xHakkaix (2:10:04 PM): calm down
Blue85Butterfly (2:10:52 PM): my own mother called me that i still havent forgiven her
Blue85Butterfly (2:10:56 PM): i am calm
xHakkaix (2:11:08 PM): look, how long did i live with you?
Blue85Butterfly (2:11:32 PM): a month
Blue85Butterfly (2:11:43 PM): maybe more
xHakkaix (2:12:00 PM): free ride or not, I stuck by you in there and tried my hardest to keep things in line, I even protected you from james. what I want to tell you is more....i dont know if it will be a fire starter or some sort of relief.
Blue85Butterfly (2:12:51 PM): just for the record i wanted that ass out of MY house before you showed
xHakkaix (2:13:10 PM): I understand, look i'm tring to talk to you but i have no clue if your yelling or not.
Blue85Butterfly (2:13:26 PM): if im in caps then im yelling
Blue85Butterfly (2:13:33 PM): but im not
xHakkaix (2:13:50 PM): ...i cant tell since, i acted stupid last night adn ...for the first time ever...got drunk.
xHakkaix (2:14:00 PM): i quit drinking now so yay for me.
xHakkaix (2:14:06 PM): in anycase on the subject.
Blue85Butterfly (2:14:15 PM): thats good keep it up
xHakkaix (2:15:01 PM): what drinking?
Blue85Butterfly (2:15:16 PM): you quiting
Blue85Butterfly (2:15:28 PM): keep it up before your in AA
xHakkaix (2:15:28 PM): oh ok, for a second i thought you wanted me to keep drinking
Blue85Butterfly (2:15:37 PM): no
xHakkaix (2:15:42 PM): i should go there anyways.
xHakkaix (2:16:10 PM): might help but in anycase, look athena, i want to tell you about the email but...its more like if i say what is the truth...you might...not believe me or will and even than...i dont want to start another fire.
Blue85Butterfly (2:16:39 PM): just tell the truth for once in your life
xHakkaix (2:17:06 PM): athena before i left you i always did tell you the truth.
xHakkaix (2:17:23 PM): but alright here....
xHakkaix (2:19:58 PM): the email was all me, in writing, the anger behind it though...was not all mine...i was talking with pip how i felt cheated one night, as if i lost alot because well....you threw me out. Pip and me....were talking about how we like to get stuff back, if not combinsated for it. Loraine even said how we should say stuff to your grandfather because he would listen to her. So pip requested me to send emails to you and amir to get your attention so you would feel like you had to pay us back.
Blue85Butterfly (2:20:48 PM): there was nothing in my house left of your i sent it all with pip
xHakkaix (2:21:11 PM): actually...pip didn't give me jack..
xHakkaix (2:21:15 PM): thats why...I sent the email.
xHakkaix (2:21:32 PM): i didn't get my CD's you promised, my blanket that cole and phil were useing name came back.
Blue85Butterfly (2:21:42 PM): and what she (lorraine) said yto my grand father set me back but i gained there trust again
xHakkaix (2:21:47 PM): and I was told that...listen i want to keep telilng oyu what james and pip said but I rather not.
xHakkaix (2:21:56 PM): good.
Blue85Butterfly (2:22:22 PM): my subb hard drives got blancked by a virus
xHakkaix (2:22:29 PM): all i wanted to tell you is in some ways I didn't send the email but I did...in a way.
xHakkaix (2:22:37 PM): sorry to hear that.
xHakkaix (2:23:08 PM): look athena, all the times I lived with you you have ot remember how much did everything I coudl do for you.
Blue85Butterfly (2:23:46 PM): like what talk about the friends i gained becasue you brought them in to my home
xHakkaix (2:24:02 PM): no not that.
xHakkaix (2:24:09 PM): more just being there when you said no one was tehre.
xHakkaix (2:24:31 PM): look, I didn't know i was causeing a problem by helping supposive friends by bringing them over.
xHakkaix (2:24:36 PM): i thought I was doing good not wrong.
xHakkaix (2:25:07 PM): i already grief over this because i hear it alot from pip and loraine and james how because of me, i got them kicked out.
Blue85Butterfly (2:25:26 PM): well everything woked out we all have jobs we pay the bills and the house looks great
xHakkaix (2:25:42 PM): glad to hear it, wish I could have seen it.
xHakkaix (2:26:22 PM): but the fact is also, i haven't lied to you, i just haven't been honest and told you the real facts, do to others possibly finding out and than...well one thing will guide and then boom.
Blue85Butterfly (2:26:31 PM): look i was will to let lorraine and pip live here same with masoud cole and phil but not james
xHakkaix (2:26:55 PM): i didn't care who lived there so long as you were safe and you didn't have trouble.
xHakkaix (2:27:03 PM): thats why I left, to have everything worked out.
xHakkaix (2:27:09 PM): I would have stayed if I knew it owuld have helped.
xHakkaix (2:27:26 PM): hell i'm working now and I'm making a living but I wanted to make a living with you.
xHakkaix (2:27:48 PM): now i make a living with a fat drunk and a asshole of a room mate, punishment I guess.
Blue85Butterfly (2:27:59 PM): karma
xHakkaix (2:28:02 PM): i just want to know, athena why did you send me those notes an letters at con?
xHakkaix (2:28:17 PM): you could have just pulled me aside anytime and yelled at me
xHakkaix (2:28:20 PM): I would have allowed it.
Blue85Butterfly (2:28:28 PM): i was to busy with friends and trying to not cause hell
Blue85Butterfly (2:28:35 PM): when did i have time
xHakkaix (2:28:51 PM): you were with robert at one point, you oculd have just pulled me away than.
Blue85Butterfly (2:29:05 PM): if i would have yelled at you would would have been hurt afterwards
xHakkaix (2:29:07 PM): after*
xHakkaix (2:29:18 PM): huh?
Blue85Butterfly (2:30:07 PM): i was ready to beat the hell out of you but i wouldnt becasue i didnt want to get kicked out of my favorite con
xHakkaix (2:30:25 PM): i would haev said go out side where no one was looking and allowed it.
xHakkaix (2:30:40 PM): Athena last thing I want is to walk in around a con and have dark feelings venting at me.
xHakkaix (2:31:08 PM): you think i want drama at a con i like? my first con ever? I wanted to have a ok time, i knew you and amir were going, maybe cole and phil so i wanted to fix things.
Blue85Butterfly (2:31:22 PM): i saw you and ran. i didnt even think about you once
xHakkaix (2:31:34 PM): i saw you run...each time.
xHakkaix (2:32:13 PM): i wanted to chase after you and talk toy ou but....i didn't want you to think i was going to hurt you since everyone thought I was going to kill you or something at con.
Blue85Butterfly (2:32:17 PM): yeah and then i got tried of that thats the only reason when i was with tidus i just siad fuckit and stood there
xHakkaix (2:32:17 PM): so I stayed away.
Blue85Butterfly (2:32:40 PM): im not afarid of you
xHakkaix (2:32:48 PM): i didn't think you ever were.
xHakkaix (2:32:58 PM): i just didn't want to do damage to you.
xHakkaix (2:33:01 PM): so I stayed away as well.
xHakkaix (2:33:07 PM): i saw you pass by the aracde many times.
xHakkaix (2:34:58 PM): look i want to fix all this, hopfully have everything be like it was before i left along time ago. But...that is up to you, and next to that, i want to fix this because i know I will see you at all the cons I will be going to. I want to spend time with you and talk and more. I still remember how we first met and cant stop thinking how I should have just told pip to send the email not me. I'm sorry for all your troubles. If I knew my life would destroy almost yours...I would have never visited you.
Blue85Butterfly (2:36:13 PM): the aracde is the only way to the dealer room where i was working
xHakkaix (2:36:27 PM): i didn't know you were working at fanime.
xHakkaix (2:36:40 PM): look if you want me to not go to fanime anymore...i'll do it.
xHakkaix (2:36:53 PM): i'll stop going, leave the con alone so you dont think I will be there to ruin it.
Blue85Butterfly (2:37:37 PM): no go i dont care i dont need your friends kicking me because of you
xHakkaix (2:37:55 PM): my friends would not care really
Blue85Butterfly (2:37:56 PM): we can talk but we will never be as close as we were
xHakkaix (2:38:05 PM): con or not they think its all stupid if drama is at con.
xHakkaix (2:38:29 PM): thats why i doubt I could go to a con where you are if we can never be as close as we were.
Blue85Butterfly (2:38:41 PM): and yes i have worked ever fanime for the past three years be it dealer of staff
xHakkaix (2:39:03 PM): wel i didn't know you still were, sorry.
Blue85Butterfly (2:39:44 PM): its ok
xHakkaix (2:40:50 PM): look, i dont want to give you problems or have your friends think i will, and I rather also i feel bad that the feeling i get around you is going to be gone so...i rather just not go to a con your at since i would be hurting more and rather not give you problems.
Blue85Butterfly (2:41:57 PM): just go i dont g.a.r.a
xHakkaix (2:42:07 PM): gara?
Blue85Butterfly (2:42:14 PM): give a rats ass
xHakkaix (2:42:14 PM): naruto?
xHakkaix (2:42:27 PM): ...i do and i was just trying to save you problems.
Blue85Butterfly (2:42:36 PM): you know thata is a good joke
xHakkaix (2:42:43 PM): ?
xHakkaix (2:42:56 PM): @@
Blue85Butterfly (2:42:59 PM): i wont go near you till i feel safe a round you
xHakkaix (2:43:16 PM): but that wont be for along long time.
xHakkaix (2:43:33 PM): and i rather hvae that moment happen when your ready so I dont want to bring you problems.
Blue85Butterfly (2:43:42 PM): who know ax but ill all i'll say is hi
xHakkaix (2:44:08 PM): yeah, i know...why do you think i'll be in alot of pain.
xHakkaix (2:44:36 PM): i dont know if your going to yaoi con or not so i really have no clue.
Blue85Butterfly (2:45:42 PM): i have to go its the only way i get to see friends
xHakkaix (2:45:51 PM): ok
xHakkaix (2:46:01 PM): i'll probly be gone than for that con.
Blue85Butterfly (2:46:15 PM): ...
xHakkaix (2:46:21 PM): what?
Blue85Butterfly (2:47:05 PM): gone?
xHakkaix (2:48:27 PM): yeah, as in not at the con.
Blue85Butterfly (2:48:38 PM): y?
xHakkaix (2:49:21 PM): I"m moving away from california before or after AX, I was going ot come back for october and for yaoi con, but I didn't know if it would be wise to go to either so, i wanted to find out how you are doing and if need be give you adn your friends all the space i can give. So i'll just cancel yaoi con for myself.
Blue85Butterfly (2:50:11 PM): we dont care me and this house
xHakkaix (2:50:43 PM): i know, thats why i'm doing that, because it will still help you out in the end.
Blue85Butterfly (2:51:31 PM): if thats what you want to do
xHakkaix (2:52:08 PM): yeah, if i do go, it might be for a group that requested me to get a room for them and help them at yaoi con for the first time, but i hvaen't gottan an email back about that so, it looks like it might not happen.
Blue85Butterfly (2:52:47 PM): well you did burn alot of brides from what i have heard
xHakkaix (2:53:00 PM): ?
xHakkaix (2:53:03 PM): what did you hear?
Blue85Butterfly (2:53:58 PM): i hear every thing
xHakkaix (2:54:17 PM): thats what i'm asking, brides? i'm just asking what you are talking about.
xHakkaix (2:54:30 PM): and if you want to play mystory question fine.
xHakkaix (2:55:02 PM): look i'm telling you all you wanted to hear and doing what you want, but if you want to play ruin his life or such. Than lets just stop talking.
Blue85Butterfly (2:56:09 PM): you didnt ruin any thing except some of my family but what ever im over it live your life your way
xHakkaix (2:56:25 PM): i'm asking though, what are you talking about?
xHakkaix (2:56:42 PM): because i dont honestly know if i can trust you and your friends still.
Blue85Butterfly (2:57:14 PM): trust who you want i never lied
xHakkaix (2:57:25 PM): did i say you lied about anything?
Blue85Butterfly (2:59:10 PM): looks like you just typed that
xHakkaix (2:59:59 PM): no i just said i dont know if I can honestly trust you and your friends because fall all I know, you and your friends might be planning osmething, or telling things to others and such, I dont know. I'm still tryign to figure out who is sending all these notes to me and such at cons.
xHakkaix (3:01:11 PM): look, hate me all you want, disspise me ok, even try and slap me. But understand, I told you the truth you wanted to hear. You made the choices and all the actions you wanted happen. I am no longer upset nor hurt by anything since I did want you wanted and told you everything.
xHakkaix (3:01:22 PM): I just hope all the things I hear from Pip and Loraine are not true.
xHakkaix (3:06:00 PM): So since this is all well and done and we both know how the other will be acting and such if we meet. I guess we can just say we're not friends and not worry about ever messing with eachother lives.
Blue85Butterfly (3:07:47 PM): we plan nothing why waste our time. oh so its not sincer your just telling me what i want
xHakkaix (3:08:01 PM): what?
xHakkaix (3:08:21 PM): you lost me
Blue85Butterfly (3:08:49 PM): we will do nothing against you we dont want blood on our hands or mad on our reos
Blue85Butterfly (3:08:57 PM): ne mi
xHakkaix (3:09:09 PM): undersatnd all but the last part.
Blue85Butterfly (3:09:42 PM): edit or mud on our reps*
xHakkaix (3:09:52 PM): and honestly say what you want, i'll just keep to myself since honestly, look...I dont trust you or your friends since they seem to be the ones that havea grudge against me. And honsetly, I did nothing to any of you, so do as you want.
Blue85Butterfly (3:11:43 PM): ok i will live my life my way
xHakkaix (3:11:55 PM): never thought you would live it any other way.
xHakkaix (3:12:07 PM): i'm just saying, leave me alone, I leave you alone.
Blue85Butterfly (3:12:47 PM): i will leave you alone thats all i want
xHakkaix (3:12:59 PM): i know that.
Blue85Butterfly (3:13:26 PM): you know i have more right to be mad than you. you claim to have paid rent when i never saw dome
Blue85Butterfly (3:13:31 PM): dime*
xHakkaix (3:13:36 PM): i did pay rent.
Blue85Butterfly (3:13:44 PM): to who not me
xHakkaix (3:13:48 PM): and look, i can be mad or not, and i'm not mad i'm just saying how i feel.
xHakkaix (3:13:50 PM): loraine.
xHakkaix (3:13:55 PM): when you and the others were in vegas.
xHakkaix (3:14:01 PM): i paid loraine up front 200
Blue85Butterfly (3:14:01 PM): in her home not mine
xHakkaix (3:14:05 PM): nope
xHakkaix (3:14:11 PM): this was back when we lived together.
xHakkaix (3:14:23 PM): i haven't paid her dick since i left her new home.
Blue85Butterfly (3:14:25 PM): it was my home not hers you should have piad it to me
xHakkaix (3:14:47 PM): you weren't there and i wanted to quickly pay since I didn't want to have to loose money.
xHakkaix (3:14:54 PM): next to that, who cares, its over and done with.
Blue85Butterfly (3:15:15 PM): i read thing too you know
xHakkaix (3:15:22 PM): what?
Blue85Butterfly (3:16:00 PM): gaia
xHakkaix (3:16:35 PM): what about gaia, i already know you and your friends had fun black balling me in my journal, again another reason why I dont want a journal so I dont have to get shit for complaining in my own way.
Blue85Butterfly (3:17:01 PM): you needed a wake up call
xHakkaix (3:17:05 PM): look hate me fine, disspise me fine, just understand I did nothing wrong to you or your friends.
xHakkaix (3:17:07 PM): wake up call?
xHakkaix (3:17:20 PM): look, i said what I wanted to say, and it worked.
Blue85Butterfly (3:17:54 PM): one request leave me, my sisters and brothers alone
xHakkaix (3:18:08 PM): uh...no, i can say what I want online
xHakkaix (3:18:14 PM): and look, your starting a fight here not me.
xHakkaix (3:18:34 PM): you and your so called sisters started somethign and ruined my con life at fanime and yaoi con.
Blue85Butterfly (3:18:42 PM): if your goint to banter on us dont use our real names
xHakkaix (3:18:50 PM): i can use any names I want.
xHakkaix (3:18:59 PM): you gave up your friendship with me
xHakkaix (3:19:04 PM): you abdonned me
Blue85Butterfly (3:19:04 PM): use there handles
xHakkaix (3:19:16 PM): your the one who doesn't care what I do anymore so I can say what I want.
xHakkaix (3:19:26 PM): and if you notice...I keep it on the net, in a journal.
xHakkaix (3:19:46 PM): and if I use a handle name, they might look that person up.
Blue85Butterfly (3:19:57 PM): no i dint you didnt want contact with me afetr you left you blcoked me
xHakkaix (3:20:05 PM): no i didn't
Blue85Butterfly (3:20:13 PM): yeah you did
xHakkaix (3:20:13 PM): you blocked me and left me
xHakkaix (3:20:15 PM): pip told me that
Blue85Butterfly (3:20:24 PM): i dont block people
xHakkaix (3:20:30 PM): she told me you want nothing ot do with me and if I came near the fucking door you would stab me.
xHakkaix (3:20:37 PM): how do I know your telling the truth.
xHakkaix (3:20:42 PM): you seem to have it out for me since I left.
Blue85Butterfly (3:20:53 PM): i dont do that shit you should know better
xHakkaix (3:21:02 PM): I was more hurt when i left that day than ever because you gave me your word I had a home still and when I got back...I didn't.
xHakkaix (3:21:08 PM): know better?!
Blue85Butterfly (3:21:11 PM): i was only after you after the email
xHakkaix (3:21:11 PM): you should I trust?
xHakkaix (3:21:27 PM): from what I heard, you were after me ever since I left and moved in with loraine for a bit.
xHakkaix (3:21:33 PM): you and cole wanted me dead I heard.
xHakkaix (3:21:46 PM): and you called me names on live journal and such loraine said.
xHakkaix (3:21:51 PM): honestly who should I trust?
Blue85Butterfly (3:22:14 PM): no i never wanted you dead i dont want people dead thats to good for some
Blue85Butterfly (3:22:22 PM): trust who you want
xHakkaix (3:22:25 PM): so i'm to good to be dead?
xHakkaix (3:22:31 PM): or not good enough I mean?
xHakkaix (3:22:38 PM): trust who I want...I wanted to trust you!!!
xHakkaix (3:22:54 PM): you gave a rats ass if I was on the streets or not and you gave a rats ass if I was hurt or ill.
xHakkaix (3:23:04 PM): you watched over me and tended to me when I needed it.
Blue85Butterfly (3:23:10 PM): you must live life to learn and take it wioth you to the next world
xHakkaix (3:23:19 PM): so now your a wise person?
Blue85Butterfly (3:23:25 PM): your no good to your next life without thta'
Blue85Butterfly (3:23:49 PM): no i was born this way youve seen this
xHakkaix (3:23:55 PM): i'm trying to be serious here and talk to you.
Blue85Butterfly (3:24:09 PM): i wanted to help
xHakkaix (3:24:28 PM): should i believe that?
xHakkaix (3:24:38 PM): because i like to know why i was kicked out
Blue85Butterfly (3:25:35 PM): you were fighting with eberyone here
xHakkaix (3:25:43 PM): actually no
xHakkaix (3:25:46 PM): i left everyone alone
xHakkaix (3:25:55 PM): everyone there, wanted me out and you said fine.
xHakkaix (3:26:22 PM): see this is why i believe everything people say about you, because you seem to take sides easily when its a group.
xHakkaix (3:26:37 PM): god damn it I loved you and you freaken went and stabbed me in the back.
Blue85Butterfly (3:26:40 PM): i dont take sides
xHakkaix (3:26:43 PM): you did!
xHakkaix (3:26:47 PM): you took the side that wanted me out
xHakkaix (3:26:55 PM): did even give me a chance when i got back.
Blue85Butterfly (3:26:57 PM): never say that to me unless you mean it
xHakkaix (3:27:01 PM): mean what
xHakkaix (3:27:08 PM): love you....i fucking do!!!
xHakkaix (3:27:15 PM): why do you think i wanted to fix this!!
xHakkaix (3:27:36 PM): why do you think i'm tryign to do all i can to get you to know i'll give you space, leave you alone and more if it helps.
Blue85Butterfly (3:27:41 PM): you cant
xHakkaix (3:28:01 PM): i know i cant becaues you seem to think i'm a fucking demon and here to ruin and threaten everything.
xHakkaix (3:29:05 PM): look, loraine left, sorry, pip i dont trust so i dont care about her, and james well he's gone now. But its not my fucking fault. The email, honestly, blame pip for telling me to send you something to get thigns back she wanted and for telling me all this stuff about you and how you really felt about me.
xHakkaix (3:29:35 PM): but honestly, i did nothign wrong to you or your friends. so either hate me or something, because i'm innocent.
Blue85Butterfly (3:32:05 PM): your no demon
xHakkaix (3:32:11 PM): this is all your choice since i'm not going to make one for you. I stuck by you, was there when you asked me to, and I even fucking took you in durning AX when no one knew you and helped you out when you asked me becausey ou were worried about being raped. So if you want to not be friends, not talk, and no longer care about me. Than fine, your choice.
xHakkaix (3:32:16 PM): than what am I?
Blue85Butterfly (3:33:14 PM): if anything you a half breedand nothing more
xHakkaix (3:33:45 PM): ok than if thats how you see me, so its your choice, do what you want.
Blue85Butterfly (3:34:10 PM): get along no more fighting
xHakkaix (3:34:17 PM): get along?
xHakkaix (3:35:14 PM): what is get along to you?
Blue85Butterfly (3:35:50 PM): say hi in the halls then go our seperate way
xHakkaix (3:36:38 PM): lets just not even bother with words since I honstly...yeah, dont trust you or your friends and like you to just know that, you hurt me, and i'll just do what you wanted in the first place, to leave you and your sisters and brothers alone.
xHakkaix (3:37:12 PM): because if your going to believe lies and rumors....than i honestly cant believe you will stay, get along, and such with me.
Blue85Butterfly (3:39:25 PM): then i wil pass and be quite when i do
Blue85Butterfly (3:40:00 PM): and not even pass a lok
Blue85Butterfly (3:40:02 PM): look*
xHakkaix (3:40:04 PM): do as you want, your life remember, i'm not incharge of it, i just like to say this, leave me and my friends alone as I do with you and your friends.
Blue85Butterfly (3:40:20 PM): i will as you have asked
xHakkaix (3:41:03 PM): ...if i asked you to forgive me and just drop this and be friends again like it was in the past and try and not look back apon this and such like you give people like pip and others second chances, would you?
Blue85Butterfly (3:41:40 PM): yes so long as it never happens again
xHakkaix (3:42:11 PM): and I beg and pleed that you and i act as if the day you last saw me before all this drama happen and i promise, you want be hurt by me.
xHakkaix (3:42:21 PM): becaues i right now like to stop crying and be like it was in the psat.
Blue85Butterfly (3:42:59 PM): fine
xHakkaix (3:44:05 PM): just promise me, if someone in your group...honesty in oyur group, is the one doing the notes...you will tell me.
Blue85Butterfly (3:44:43 PM): i will buut i know its not one of mine
xHakkaix (3:45:06 PM): this cons notes hurt the most.
xHakkaix (3:45:21 PM): oen of them called me a rapest and threatened to tell con staff about such a thing.
xHakkaix (3:46:21 PM): are you and everyone doing ok with money?
xHakkaix (3:48:09 PM): ?
xHakkaix signed off at 3:57:32 PM.

yes i use the time stamp feature and no i never edit

Thu, 26 May 2005 13:01:32 GMT

hey all ill be there in 6 hours love you and ill call you jessa when i get there

cell

Thu, 19 May 2005 05:25:47 GMT

PLEASE GUYS DONT CALL MY OLD CELL!!!! i sware im working on it but my bio mother has messed things up for me again. i just have to wait a little longer give me like 2 days before fanime.

Still going strong

Wed, 11 May 2005 07:38:58 GMT

HI HI one and all who still read this thing love you all. well its may only a few more weeks till fanime im going shoping for it on the 22 mostly socks. phil just got a new job at petsmart. woot discount on kitty stuff. cole is getting more hours and me im being worked alot but like i care big pay check means fanime spendage and rent paid. dispit the bill/mail problem i gat everything paid on time and didnt get anything turned off.hahhaahahaha masoud is still working on getting deals but nothing really till summer.

well bye for now wann know anything eles comment the q's

starwars

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 01:36:30 GMT

happyness for today star wars movie in 30 days and since burger king is promoing it me and a few people get to gank the posters when were done and hahaahahaha guess who im giving it to??? finally working fast food has paid off. fanime is around the corner and i get to see my family. i will have all my bills paid in time this month and ill make out the checks for the next before i leave. every thing is set woot. so again im doing fine and no need to worry

bills for april

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 21:24:26 GMT

Rent It includes everything except phone and cable^^
501.94 but since im late oh well already paid 300$ i still owe 231.84 thats ok tho cole is covering it asap ^^

Phone is 92.22 and thats with dsl and 14$ in long distance. already paid 50$ so ha i still owe 42.22 but again wil have it all covered on the 21 so im doing ok and i will survive :P

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 17:55:19 GMT

Happyness is mine Tsubasa Chronicle is being turned into an anime =^.^= happy happy happy. so i downloaded the promo thinking BS but nope another clamp series is being turned in to another great anime. i hope its good now only if del rey would get off their ass and finish the series in manga form.

new Email

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 06:16:17 GMT

blue4butterfly@Neomail.com

ok ok i broke down and started to pay for my neopets account i hated the ad bars. so what the heck its 7$ a month^^

Once Again

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 16:09:29 GMT

You know why in the hell haven’t I done this sooner oh well shit happens. Well it seems for a while my right ring and pinky finger are going to be out of commission. Why do you ask geeee could it be because the idiot that I am hit the wall again? Yup that right so if anyone wants to be mad at me go for it I don’t give a flying fuck any more what happens to me. But despite what people think I do care about my family I know they may not believe it because I have chosen to help people that people can’t stand. My life my choice remember that. It was painfully made apparent to me that know matter what I do or say will not help. But I guess I have really no one to blame but my self since I can’t stop helping people. Because that’s how I was raised help people until they can stand on their own.

Now on to some thing that irked me last night. People came home last night and something was passed on that I said in a ventful manner. And the head of the house got pissed and said "if you want the rent you have to be home for it or how else can we give it to you?" well see here’s the bright shiny thing on that note. Mmmmmm I haven’t been home only because when every one gets home I'm still at work. Ok I work fast food it’s not the best thing but you know it pays what I need it to. I also admit I have not been sleeping over here the last few nights but I thought that was best, nope wrong again I guess! Here’s how it has been lately since people have had to stay in hotels any way I thought why not? Ok so I go to work get off go home wait not say anything to anyone because if I do that will probably start some thing. And then everyone goes to bed ok don’t get rent handle the stuff I do on line like read LJ. Then I call and get out of here.

So yes I have been here it has just been have you people chosen not to see me well I guess just keep on not seeing me I’m not that important. You know strange thought I still wonder why is it when this shit started I didn’t kick out the person who started it? Again oh fucking hell I’m to nice and wont kick anyone out no matter what ill keep giving them chances. Oh and on that note animal abusers will no longer get another chance out of me touch my cats again and I will get even. This person knows who I'm talking about. M.J. Artemis and gojyo are mine so throw them again and I won’t be nice.

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 07:32:53 GMT

Well all I can say is why is it whenever I help someone I get fucked! I mean hell aren’t you supposed to get something good out of it, and not kicked down for it. I thought I was doing the right thing and help people but dumb ass stupid me had to do it again and mess everything up for everyone shit can't I do any thing right, or am I doomed to screw everyone over no matter what? I guess all I'm good for is a joke! I never meant to hurt anyone or do what I did but I did it and I at least admit that so if you want to know just ask.

The Real-estate of Relationships

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 13:54:02 GMT

Got bored last night can't you tell.
Rent= Only Screwing
Lease= Dating
Escrow= Engaged
Mortgage= Married
Foreclosure= Divorced
Bankruptcy= Remarried
I think thats all of them. I'm so not getting into the childern aspect of this I'll let some one eles handle that ^_~.

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 06:39:57 GMT

http://www.flickr.com/photos/31256754@N00/

ok went and looked up old pic and put them up

New piccies

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 10:24:49 GMT

http://www.flickr.com/photos/31256754@N00/

ill get the house one up when i clean it up^^